When It Comes Down To You

I was debating whether to blog this or not. I'm not even sure how to start this subject, so I'll just go with what my heart debates to say. Isn't that the natural way to do it?

[Sorry to tell you that there wont be any pictures with the blog today. I know you all enjoy my blogs more when I blog with pictures c; ]

There's going to be a point in your life where your family and friends are not going to be happy with the decisions you make (I'm talking about your dream[s]). But you know what? This isn't "about them". This is about YOU and what you believe in. You need to keep going no matter how much they are against this. No matter if they are your parents, your friends, your pastor, your siblings, your mentor, whoever the hell it is that has a problem with it or objects to what you're pursuing. Take a look at your idols..they didn't get their success by doing what others wanted them to do. They got their success (they're dream come true) by doing what THEY believed in: what they believed would work. Most importantly, I bet you, they believed in themselves.

Look, I have something to tell you!

The reason why I am blogging this today is because my mom does not want me to go to Tribeca AT ALL. She doesn't want me to go there for several reasons. The money, the location, and the ....competition I guess you could say. The competition: she says "it's a long shot". When my mom was talking to me about going to Tribeca Flashpoint Academy, I took it really, really hard. I was crying. It sounded like she did not believe in this at all. It even sounded like she didn't even believe that I can make it. Do you have any idea how that feels? Maybe you do know. Maybe some of you have parents that don't believe in you or your dreams that much. It hurts a lot. To me, it's like injecting venom and then they just watch you suffer. I told her "Thanks for believing in me, mom", real sarcastically.

This is when I decided that this whole thing is a test that God is putting me through, right now. I KNOW it is, because before I would always have people make decisions for me, or go by what other people say. Not to long ago, I realized that I am at the point in my life where I NEED to make decisions for myself...and I HAVE been. So the other day was the last warning or reminder to make important decisions for myself. This is the time where I realized that not everyone in my circle are going to be okay with the decisions I make, I may lose some people, but I need to stick to my guns.......otherwise this is never gonna happen. I'll never pursue my dream if I back out because other people are angry. This is not about them. This is about me. If I have to lose them because of their lack of belief and their frustration then so be it. That means they were really never here anyway. They only lasted when my results made them happy. You know what I mean?

I'm sorry to say people, but this is how the world is apparently. When it comes down to you, remember these:

-YOU be the person to make the final important decision (after all ,YOU'RE the one that deals with the results.)
-Believe in YOU and what YOU want to pursue.
-You can't back out because some of the people you care about are mad with YOUR decisions (remember, your dream wont come true if you do this. Always remember ALL the things I said in my earlier blogs about never giving up and believing in yourself and dreams.)
-This is YOUR path, YOUR dream, YOUR life, YOUR outcome. That's why I'm stressing the "don't back out" rule, because YOU'RE gonna be the one who is living with the results NOT them. Please, please, please see where I am going with this. Please, see what I mean.
-When/if you lose some people that's okay. This is just a discovery to find out who is really here FOR YOU and who believes in YOU.  It may hurt at first, but trust me...it'll be for the best. You'll figure that out. Even if it's family, it's for the best. Family does not always mean blood. Family means a group of people who are there for each other (thick or thin) to the end of time. Family will always believe in you and support you.

If there is anyone out there who is looking up to me. If I am your idol, if I inspire you, if I am any type of light to you at all, I tell you this: I WILL NOT back out,okay! I am sticking to my guns, pursuing my dreams, never giving up, never stop believing in myself, will walk right on by those people who doubt me or the things I do. I won't look back or wait up for them. I will do whatever it takes! I don't just blog for the hell of it! Whoever reads this blog (near or far, american or non, friend or foe, young or old) I blog because I want you to know that there is somebody (me) out there who wants you to pursue your dreams/goals. Yeah, even if I don't know who you are, okay! This is what I stand for: believing in people...believing that people can. I stand for those people who need someone to believe in them. There are more people who give up too easily than give it their all. That's the problem these days! So when you wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and tell yourself YOU CAN, remember me-the person who believes in you! Don't be afraid to connect with me on twitter or facebook, or wherever you find me, even if we're strangers. This is what I'm here for.

Remember what I blogged today, because it's important, it's the truth, and it's proof that I want you to succeed.

Creatively Speaking,

Gotta Good Feeling

Well it has been a lovely morning, except I'm going through the bipolar stages of Wisconsin again. I don't know what to wear any more, for the time being. It's an hour to lunch, I'm still in my P.J.'s, it's in the middle of August, and I'm debating if I should wear jeans with t-shirt, or jeans with a hoodie, because YES it is that considerably chilly out. Yesterday, I wore jeans with a t-shirt, because it was a bit chilly out then too. Around four yesterday, I started to get really hot. So you can see why I have no clue what to wear any more. Wisconsin is the most bipolar place I know of...so far. You want my advice? Don't move here, don't even visit here. It's not worth the trip, unless you're coming here for Wisconsin Dells or Frosty Freeze. ....Or maybe even to watch the Packers. But that's it! Otherwise, Wisconsin is lame.

I wont bore you with The Land of The Cheese Heads, any more.


What I'm really blogging about is something you may not all agree with or believe in. I believe that God puts certain people in our paths for reasons. "Some people are in your life for a reason, others for a season."-Billy Ray Cyrus. Yesterday was proof for me. I met someone that is going to help me out with something that I have been looking for. I also have been thinking about it for a long time. What happened was, I went to my cousins graduation party, and there I was eating across from this lady. She asked my name. From there on, we started talking. I got this 'feeling' to ask her about having kids, and what it's like being a parent. I eventually inched my way on telling her about being a foster parent and maybe an adoptive parent.

What's remarkable is she has swung on the ropes of being a foster parent. We got so into this subject that I told her about my plans and thoughts for the future and how being a foster/adoptive parent is part of my future. Where am I going with this? Be patient, I'm getting to it! (I like to blog with detail.) There's this gig called "Respite Foster Care". That would seem to be the best match for me. Respite foster care is when the foster parents need a brake from fostering the kid. You would be basically watching the kid until the foster parents  are done from their "vacation" or brake. The lady I was talking to said that I'd be perfect right now for the gig because:

1. I'm old enough
2. I'm not working (the fostering facilities actually prefer if you DIDN'T work so you can spend time with the kid, because that's what they need: quality time, some one to be there for them, taking care of them...ya know.)
3. They pay you A LOT for this! They don't care what you do with the money as long as you're not spending it on harmful things such as drugs or smokes...stuff like that. You can buy clothes for yourself or the kid, take you and the kid out to eat, put it in your savings, whatever! Now, of course I would never become a foster parent just for the money. In fact, I didn't even know you get paid to be a foster or adoptive parent. I have been thinking about being a foster parent because I want to make a difference in a younger persons life. Plus, get experience with kids.

**This is a win-win situation for me AND the kid because:
A. I am looking for a job with kids to gain experience
B. The kid needs a home
C. With the respite gig, it's short term (which is the degree I can handle, but you keep getting new kids. Ya know what I mean?)
D. I get paid for this. So this is kind of a job with kids AND I get a head start.
**Not to mention that the lady said I could also start out on baby sitting her grand daughter, which she has been looking for help, actually!

It's amazing how things work out! I'm really hoping this goes through. I mean, why wouldn't it? What are the odds that we just started talking about it at my cousins grad party, AND she's been through it all?!? Seriously, come on! We exchanged numbers, for Pete sake! I gotta good feeling that something is going to happen!

You see, for a while...I was feeling depressed, (I KNOW, I KNOW! ME OUT OF ALL PEOPLE? BROOKE THE POSITIVE? BROOKE THE GO GET'ER? BROOKE THE BELIEVER? BROOKE? NOT BROOKE? BROOKE WOULD NOT BECOME DEPRESSED!) but I was depressed. I was depressed, because I felt like nothing was going for me. I was bored, I was lonely, I couldn't get a job, I had no money, I did the same thing just about every day. I said "I can't be in the state of denial." So, I went and talked to my neighbor Joyce telling her how I was feeling and what has been going on with me. She said that she knew. She could see I was depressed. Joyce talked me through and helped me out. We then prayed out loud together that something would come along my way. This you guys...this (the lady-I don't want to say names, respect privacy-that is helping me out with respite foster care and baby sitting) is the answer, I believe. This is it! There is no way that what happened at my cousins graduation party was just a coincidence ......Because you know what? The lady said that she does not believe in coincidence ...AND NEITHER DO I! We met each other yesterday FOR A REASON, and GOD put us in each others paths! I KNOW he did! I gotta good feeling that things are going to start working out and come around. I really do.

You do not have to believe in that, but this is MY blog where I'll express my believes and feelings. You may not support this idea at all, and may not approve either, but if that's the case DO NOT bother commenting or contacting me about this blog post. I am 21 years old now. I make my own decisions. Do I make myself clear? I don't want to hear any complaints, remarks, or messages/comments talking me down or trying to change my mind about this. If I see any, they will be removed and I will not reply. In fact, it will put you on my bad side for a while. Don't say I didn't warn you.

Creatively Speaking,