When The Going Gets Tough

Well, I'm just gonna be honest here. I can be very lazy at times. All this is going to change though because While 2012 taught me how to be a strong, courageous woman, 2013 is now giving me the heads up that it's going to challenge me for all the right reasons, and how to challenge myself.

I'm going to be honest here...I've been lazy, I've been a bit of a bum, I've been having things easy, I've had the luxury of not having any duty or having many things to work on. But now, all this is coming to an end, for good reasons.

Starting next week, I'll be going to the athletic center with my mom to exercise on the treadmill, while she does her power pump. When I get into college this fall, I'll do my very best, using a good attitude, and make the best of my time there. It is what you make it! The last two days I was crying because I thought that I'm not gonna make it out of college...that I'll fail. In high school, for some reason I thought that I wasn't going to make it out, that I wouldn't graduate. The same anxiety about high school came back the last two nights, only about college this time.

WHY AM I ANXIOUS? College hasn't even started yet, and I'm making it worse than it actually is! Just like a kid would do with a shot. (The thought is worse.) I shouldn't be afraid, because I know that I'm going to do my very best that I possibly can and make sure I get some good out of it.

Plus, I prayed to God that he'd give me what I need to make it. If you pray to him, you're already taken care of. He has your back. He has MY back. He knows I want to succeed and graduate well with all my heart, and he knows that I fear that I wont. But I'm already taken care of, cause I'm in his hands. I have faith. When the going get's tough, I get going!

I just have to remind myself the inspiring things that I told you all before. I can give really good advice and inspiration, but I sometimes have a hard time following my own words.

No matter, the more I challenge myself the better I'll become.

Creatively Speaking,

Your Timing Vs. Right Timing

Well, I'd like to make the exciting announcement that it is official. Today, I went to URock, applied, and all I need to do is pay the 44 dollar fee! I will be going to URock for general education (24 credits needed) and I will get my associates degree, once I'm done with URock. After that, I will be transferring over to a different University such as Whitewater or Milwaukee, etc to get a bachelors degree for my my major that I've decided to take (theatre) and my minor will be (Spanish,) since they don't do that at URock. Even at the University I will be transferring to, I'll still be climbing up the later in Spanish.

It is different than what I was thinking it would be for URock. I am going to have to take some classes that I did not expect to be taking, which will cause me a time stretch here, but that's okay. I realized that if I'm always timing myself and giving myself these expectations to finish by a certain time that I'll only end up disappointing myself and causing myself to be under pressure (because I'm timing.) 

I have always said that the greatest things take a great amount of time to accomplish. Nothing comes easy either. So, I guess the inspiring message today is, that you don't have to achieve great things by the time you're 25. Someone told me that on tumblr, and it's SO TRUE! Now, I'd just like to add that 

• Don't rush yourself, don't rush time, don't rush to finish something
• Go at your pace. If it is meant to be, it will happen on it's own time AND the right time.
• Enjoy the things you do and make the best of the time you are spending and passing. 
• Make a goal to where you'll be doing something you truly enjoy. Talking to my academic councilor today, she said that she majored in "something-counselling" and  even though she feels like her salary could be better, she TRULY enjoys what she does and where she works. She said that working in place that you are happy to be in OR doing  something that you truly enjoy definitely beats working in a place/doing something you're not happy with & getting  a good pay.
• All your hard work and devotion will pay off once you are finished. Do YOUR very best. 

My timing has caused me nothing but disappointment and unfinished tasks/goals. So just forget expectations about timing success. It does absolutely nothing. 

Stay focused, Keep going, Don't fret guys!

Creatively Speaking,

This Is It

Oh my Godiva, it has been ages since I posted a blog!

 But here I am, blogging this very moment to tell you all that like to check up with me that I've made the decision to go to URock this summer. I'll be going for Spanish and Theatre. I might also look into "Latin-American Latina Women" studies. Not a lot of you know that I am crazily passionate about the Spanish culture, everything from A-Z.

Anyway...staying on topic, I know in the past that I said I was going to go to two different schools (Tribeca Flashpoint Academy and Film Connection Institute.) Sometimes you find many things, but they end up not being the right choice, and you go through all the wrong ones (or not so best ones) to find the right one. I am still  very interested movies. Who DOESN'T love the movies?

As I have told my other friends who are aspiring film makers that I like to be creatively realistic as possible. I'm not that much of a fan of Green Screen, blue screen, etc. With this being said, there is hardly any of that in plays or musical plays. The actors are right in front of you, the props is in your surrounding, and things like that. My inspiration for theatre comes from Disney's Lion King-Broadway and Cléopâtre-la dernière reine d'Égypte. 

I may seem indecisive to you, but it's OFFICIAL this time. I'm pretty much all set and stone, paper work has already been sent, and the timing is right around the corner. I'm so looking forward to summer of 2013! Greater things are ahead of me! :)

Creatively speaking,

My Darker Side

For those of you who have read variety of my writings, several of you have seemed very concern because of the scenarios. I'd just like to say please be aware that when you read my stories you will be encountering dark scenarios that may seem rather twisted. My writing style is very different from my outlook life:  Positive, bright, content. You will not be experiencing such things in my novels, just to give you all a heads up. Also do  not take my novels personally. The characters are never going to resemble anyone in real life. If something very bad happens to the characters it's BECAUSE it is in line with the plot, it's all part of the plan. 

-There is no concerns needed.

-There is no harsh feelings towards anyone.

-Characters are never going to secretly say or show how I feel about a person in real life.

Creatively Speaking,

And The TRUTH Is

Hey everyone,
I hope you all had a blessed Christmas, and fun new years eve!

Okay, so here I am blogging with your answers. For the first time, surprisingly, none of you asked about my writing or creativity. Majority of you asked the same question: "What are your new year resolutions?"

The truth is I have about five new goals for 2013:
-Achieving the vital baby steps
-lose 4 pounds
-get into hair modeling
-get a job
-accepted into college by August

The baby steps:
It is okay for me or anyone else to realize this about themselves, that sometimes we put the wagon before the horse and that is what keeps us back. The number one resolution is to walk many "stepping stones"...the stepping stones that are vital to getting me closer to my ONE. MAIN. DESTINATION. THAT'S what is important here.

Weight Loss:
Though, I have never been looking any better, I'm still not quite where I wanna be with my body. I don't need to lose a whole lot. Four pounds WILL BE gone.

Hair Modeling:
This is definitely not a priority on my list. I look at it as a bonus....like those mini games you get to do on Mario video games that will give you a little extra something.

Job:
I REALLY need a job now for many reasons. There is so much I could say on this subject, but I wont. Other than the baby steps/stepping stones, this is at the top of my To Do list.

College:
My patients is shrinking, the anticipation is rising higher, it's the only thing that echos my mind, the more I watch Bonus Material on DVD's the more I think about the day I'm going to get interviewed by my mentor from this college I'm applying at...........bottom line is I WANNA GET  IN............BY August! It WILL happen. College IS my DESTINATION for this year.

I hope I answered clear enough for you all.
Good luck to you guys with YOUR resolutions!

Creatively Speaking,