I'm going to be honest here...I've been lazy, I've been a bit of a bum, I've been having things easy, I've had the luxury of not having any duty or having many things to work on. But now, all this is coming to an end, for good reasons.
Starting next week, I'll be going to the athletic center with my mom to exercise on the treadmill, while she does her power pump. When I get into college this fall, I'll do my very best, using a good attitude, and make the best of my time there. It is what you make it! The last two days I was crying because I thought that I'm not gonna make it out of college...that I'll fail. In high school, for some reason I thought that I wasn't going to make it out, that I wouldn't graduate. The same anxiety about high school came back the last two nights, only about college this time.
WHY AM I ANXIOUS? College hasn't even started yet, and I'm making it worse than it actually is! Just like a kid would do with a shot. (The thought is worse.) I shouldn't be afraid, because I know that I'm going to do my very best that I possibly can and make sure I get some good out of it.
Plus, I prayed to God that he'd give me what I need to make it. If you pray to him, you're already taken care of. He has your back. He has MY back. He knows I want to succeed and graduate well with all my heart, and he knows that I fear that I wont. But I'm already taken care of, cause I'm in his hands. I have faith. When the going get's tough, I get going!
I just have to remind myself the inspiring things that I told you all before. I can give really good advice and inspiration, but I sometimes have a hard time following my own words.
No matter, the more I challenge myself the better I'll become.
Creatively Speaking,
