I have been so nerves with this whole dorm life coming up in the fall. It will be my first time away from family members, and away from home, totally out of state. They say the best thing for anxiety is to turn it into excitement. I've been trying to do that, and I just have the hardest time with it. Maybe it's because my sleeping schedule is out of whack.
Anyway, I was in the middle of watching the movie 21 and it reminded me of something. I have three vacations coming up in a row! My first stop is Myrtle Beach for my grandparents 50th anniversary. Second is Vegas, and third is Arizona...THANK GOD! I miss Arizona so much. No I'm not from there, but I've visited a few times. It's so much better than WI and the place is beautiful year round. Anyway...back on topic. Most of you should know already, from my video I posted, that I plan on going into Tribeca Flashpoint Media Arts Academy, a college for film and other media arts. I was watching one of their tutorial videos and one of the professors said "If I was to give an incoming student advice I would say to practice communication and verbal skills, because at the end of the day we are communicating-we're in the communication business". So I got to thinking, with me being in Vegas with a lot of different people, that would be a good opportunity to practice those skills. Not being so shy. (I've broken out MOST part of that shell a couple years ago.) Good time for me to practice certain nooks and cranny's of communication and verbal skills. Let's face it, when I'm there, I'm gonna be with people who I don't even know! Yes college is totally different than braking the ice with strangers on a vacation, but it's the way I work things. I can work things to my advantages and find ways to relate them back to something in particular.
(Totally a must see...I think we're staying in a hotel
that's ancient Egypt theme, anyways)
Perhaps all these vacations coming up will help me loosen up for the dorm life. I'm a very independent person, it's just I have NO idea how it works. Where do I get food, where do I get my money for the food...? Ya know?!? That type of thing. I can not tell you all how much I need these vacations. Winter is a total blow for me. I'm a summer person, I was born in the summer, my heart beats faster and I feel happier and more at home at places like Arizona or a tropical beach.
(Me at a relatives house in AZ, 2005)
This is the time in my life where I have to brake out of my old shell entirely, put my brave face on (Delta Goodrem lyric, right there,) lock in the confidence so it doesn't escape when I feel vulnerable, and put on my big girl panties and just deal with it. Learn how to face with whatever is coming my way. Besides, I WANT this! I WANT to go to college at Tribeca and learn, become a pro so I can fulfill my dream of becoming an excellent Hollywood Film Director. This is what I truly want in life. I was born for the movies, I love the movies. It has to be a legit part of my life. I DO NOT want to sit home and JUST WATCH the movies. I wanna be part of them! To be quite honest, I don't even have a back up plan! That's how determined and devoted I am of having this career. To me having a backup plan is like allowing yourself to say "I'll give up sometime." NO I keep trying till I get my dream.Quitters never win. And I NEVER quit. Ever. Giving up is never an option for me. ....................................BRAVE FACE!.........................
Maybe one of you guys have some advice for me. *Hint, hint nudge, nudge,*
So besides college, I'm gonna be doing the Betty Crocker: yes, that means baking! I'll be making different types of cookies, brownies, and cupcakes. This is for my cousins benefit after he went trough some brain damage. I don't really want to be to specific, because one-I have no idea how to spell it, and two-I'm not sure if I should be saying a whole lot for privacy and respect reasons. Anyway, we need to help make money for his family and the cost of everything medical-wise. I will be taking the goodies, putting them in a basket and they will be going out for auctioning with the other auction gifts.
(No, I didn't make this-wish I did-got it from someone off of Facebook)
My cookies will be:
Monster cookies
Choc. chip cookies
Sugar Cookies
Cupcakes will be:
Confetti cupcakes
Choc. cupcakes
and I'm gonna try for banana
... all will I attempt to decorate
And my brownies will be regular brownies and some with nuts.
Or do you think I should leave them out to make things more simple in case the family has an allergy or something?
BRRRING IT ON, OVEN!
Creatively Speaking,
